I Lost My Job Today

I lost my job today. 

I honestly never thought I would have to say those words. Oh I knew it was possible, and I most certainly don’t think I’m an amazing employee that could never lose her job, it’s just one of those things you don’t think could happen to you. 

What’s funny is, I saw this coming. I suspected if there were any more cuts, it would be me. I even tried to prepare my newly hired supervisor for it. But when the call came this morning, it still brought me to my knees. 

I LOVED my job. I loved the institution I worked for and the people in it. In so many ways, my heart is broken. 

But in so many MORE ways, I see my God moving. And that gives me hope. 

There’s a quote that says, “don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened” and that’s so applicable to this moment. Don’t worry, I’ve cried a LOT today. And I’ll continue to cry over this but I am incredibly grateful I even had the opportunity to work in this job. The skills I learned, the things I did, the people I met. Man, what a ride. 

But it’s time now. Time for a new adventure. A new beginning. So much good is already happening in my life and for that, I’m grateful.

It’s not lost on me the significance of a gift I recently received of several picture books for my graduation about all the places I’ll go and all the things I’ll do. Relevant for a graduation, yes, but so much more profound in meaning in this very moment. 

I will go to amazing places. And I will do amazing things. 

But first, I’ll sit with the sadness and I’ll say my goodbyes. To my apartment, to my colleagues who have become friends, and to my town.  

Yes, I lost my job today. But you know what? It’s OK.

“But there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears. 
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears. 
Get over your hill and see what you find there, 
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair”~Mumford and Sons